To Dear mom and dad,
Here I'm writing for u.
I know I'm not ur best child and daughter.
I know sometimes u look me as a trouble in the family.
U always said it but u didn't realise
I know in ur mind right now u will think u didn't.
Yes, u always said that I am ungrateful child
U always said that I have big ego
U always said all I know is about myself and doesn't think about others.
U wrong but it doesn't change what u think about me
Even if I say all I do is for u
U will see me as a failure when u always thought I'm a failure
But u will see me as a success when u thought I will be successful.
Dear mom and dad,
I don't mean to hurt ur feelings
I don't mean to be rude
I don't mean to be ungrateful
I don't mean to be bad
All I want is ur bless.
Ur blessing is important to me
Because why?
All I do will become useless without ur bless.
Maybe u didn't realise
That I've done many things for u
U always talk about money 24/7
Yes, I don't give u lots of money likes abang
I don't give money to adik likes ada do
But u guys never realise that I actually have give money
Not to much but I do have give
I always spend my money for my family
I bought tshirt, pants
I treat everyone meals
I've done so many things but u guys never realise it
Instead, u guys still say that I am ungrateful child
But I just keep quiet and listening all of it.
When I'm in trouble, u said it is because of my fault
I did not wish for all what happened to me
It is Allah will
But u still said it's my fault.
U can count how many times I went for holidays, vacation or what-so-ever
When u guys went for vacation, were I went too??
No!
When u guys have so much fun time together, am I with u too??
No!
Maybe u not realise but u always leave me behind
When I failed, u scold me
But when I success, u ask me to do the best than that.
But when abang or ada or adik fail, u give them support to try harder next time
Can u remember how many times u support me?
Can u remember how many times I proud u guys?
Can you?
As I remember, u just know how to scold me n said that this is all for my good.
Does anyone of u ever ask me what I want?
Does anyone ask me what I really want to be?
Does u??
All u knew is I follow all ur saying
All u knew is everything u do is for my own sake
Without u know what I want or what I like or what I feel
And when I said I don't like it,
U said it is not ur choice
It is my choice.
Have u ever ask me if I like it?
No
All u know is it is for my sake.
And then u blame it on me
Have u ever approve my choice?
No
U said I don't have future with my choice
U said ur choice is better
Without even thinking about my feelings
I followed not because I love it
But it is because of u!
Have u ever thought about it?
No
All u know it is my choice, instead of ur choice eventhough u the one who told me to accept ur choice
I have phobia but u say I'm over acting
I am sick but u say I'm lying
I am alone but u never know it
I have trouble but u just think I'm pretending
I try to do my best but u never support me
I have feelings but u never try to understand
I don't have much to say
Because when I say
All in ur mind is I'm the wrong one
And u r always the right one
Once again,
Eventhough in ur eyes,
I'm not a good child and daughter,
I'm a ungrateful child
I try to do my best
I don't ask for u to proud with me
I don't ask for any reward
I don't ask anything
I only ask for u to appreciate
When I'm still in front of ur eyes...
Always in my heart, my soul and my mind
Mom and dad
With love,
Your daughter.
p/s: sorry for my poor English
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